I don't care, I don't care, I don't care

It's amazing how quickly things can change. Only, 'amazing' sounds too positive, it's not the right word.

I want

• a feeling of accomplishment
• spring
• carefree days
• a feeling of excitement
• new jeans
• good jokes
• a feeling of unity
• bad jokes
• nighttime swims
• a feeling of readiness

I have

• a headache
• no life
• too much homework
• gone in over my head (?)
• a feeling of vacuum