Bring it on!

As I was riding my bike through the annual Christmas rain on my way to Jägersro Center in order to finalize my Christmas shopping, I decided to summarise this past year. Yes, I am aware of the fact that more than a week of it remains, but I don't think of that as an issue, since I won't have any problem whatsoever with letting 2005 go.

This year has, in terms of pretty much everything, sucked. Let's start with the obvious: guys. The first crush of the year, and perhaps the most devastating one, was the guy who owned the café where me and my friends held the New Year's party last year. He didn't have the chance to blow me off until early April, though, after merely one week of leading me on. Sucked a lot. Mid-April was the time for my much-feared IRL-date with Erik. Yes. That didn't work out. I don't know if it was the fact that I had changed my mind about the whole thing about a week prior to the date, or perhaps the fact that he now, in retrospect, appears to be a socially impaired freak. These events in combination caused me to seriously reconsider my situation. I decided to take a break from men, which turned out so-so. The summer camp where I worked was filled with hunks, highly crushable, but yet, nothing really serious arose. Which was good. With me being off men and all. Didn't feel good at the time though, so when Kajsa in August presented me with the opportunity of road tripping with her, Martyna and Joey to Kajsa's cousin in Gothenburg in order to visit some man-stashed party, who was I to say no? Little did I know that the party would be the beginning of a fling that would affect me until the end of the year. I speak of none other than the disaster called Ian, the man that seems to have neither heart nor brain, but somehow is able to use them both in order to trick little girls like me. I'm so lame for writing that last sentence.

That was that, you say? Well, school-wise, things have also sucked. I'm not happy with the way my Extended Essay came out, and I think that by now, people close to me understand that it's a big deal. My grades are being lowered due to laziness (one of the seven deadly sins, if I'm not mistaken) and I have overdue lab reports, essays and other things, which I really need to do during the holidays. I'm lagging (is that a word?) behind in each subject. What really sucks is that I only have myself to blame.

These things may not seem very important to you, but essentially, they're what my life consists of. Okay, that was an oversimplification, but sure as hell, they do affect every aspect of my life. Lame? Again, yes. That's why this year has sucked. Really, really sucked.

Please, don't get me wrong, I have two arms and two legs and one head, and a loving family and awesome friends but I'm also a great fan of bitching. And oh yeah, this is my blog. Sod off if you don't like it.

In conclusion, this is why I'm looking forward to the next year. Bring on the ulcers, bring on the final exams. Bring on the long, cold spring and bring on the fights with my mom. Graduation, school trips, parties. Getting drunk and making out, being sober and wishing I was drunk. Last minute studying and preparing for oral presentations. Applying to college and going to the States. Finding out what I should do with my life and finding out how. I'm not saying that all of these things will be included in 2006, but some of them, at least. Bring it on!