SHE'S LOSING IT

Wow, I sure managed to stay away from blogger.com for a while. Uh, not. Two weeks is all I can handle.

Thing is, I can’t stand myself when I try to be all mysterious and not tell cyberspace and half of IB1 about what’s going on. What I mean is that it’s difficult to blog right now, because I just want to blog about things that I can’t blog about, out of sheer self-respect. Therefore, my entries are mysterious and probably not very interesting. I apologize for this, and promise to try and change the course of my life so that it goes back to normal and I can write blogs about how boring my life is.

I miss Martin and I want to stop time. Yesterday I couldn’t sleep, because I realized that I still have no idea what I want to do. Going to college this year is unthinkable, even though I’ve applied and thus gotten my mom’s hopes up. Bah, who cares about mom’s hopes, anyway? I’m supposed to be focusing on my hopes. It’s difficult, especially since I don’t know what they are.

Oh god, my headache is killing me. Say hello to the annual spring cold. I promised myself I wouldn’t get sick right before exams. I’m a lousy liar.

What a depressing blog entry. Time to make a happy-list:

• I’m going to BERLIN next month, with some of my closest friends. It’s going to be great.
• Late May and Early June is full of parties. I have like 10 different ones planned in as we speak
• My friends are cool. They care.
• My cat has not been hit by a car, which I automatically assume every time he doesn’t come when I call him. He’s lying on a blanket on the windowsill as we speak.
• School isn’t so bad. I have ¾ of biology (rather easy), 2/5 of math and ½ of history left to revise. It’s gonna be okay.

I’m still losing it, though.